Hello all. I am so sorry that I've been behind on posting the giveaway. I've been hit with a bunch of stuff in the past couple weeks. To be quite honest, things between me and my dh have been pretty tense and not getting better. He is rarely home, which puts an incredible amount of stress on me. I am basically raising three kids on my own. I have no energy. I am always lonely and upset. I have no one to talk to. All of my family and friends are hours away. I need some adult interaction. He just doesn't get it. There is so much more to the situation that I just don't want to get into.
Azriel has been having tummy aches off and on for the last 2 weeks. I think they're brought on by anxiety. And I am totally blaming myself for it. I try so hard to be a good mom but I know I'm falling short. My patience has worn thin.
My car is in the shop with a most likely busted radiator. So, I am stuck in the middle of nowhere, where I know no one, with 3 kids and no car. Great. I have no idea how much it'll cost to fix it. It'll most likely clean out our savings.
I am having a major craft block. I have 2 swaps due by the end of the week. I am cringing. I am going to have to be late.
I want to be appreciated and cared for. I want to feel alive again.
I feel stuck and frustrated. I am so mad at him. I am so frustrated with him.
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Oh Honey...when it rains it pours. I'm so sorry things are rough for you right now. I'm going to send you lots of good energy and lots of love. I don't know what is going on exactly but I know you are strong and you can handle it.
oh darling! please put your swapping aside and do something for your very own self.
I only have one lady to take care off and I feel this way pretty often. I started forcing myself to go to "mom café" even if they are 10yr + older than me, having other interests and conversation subjects (school, day care, hospital things.... ) but I force myself to go to keep my sanity and talk to another adult than my mom.
I also try to get out every day and go for a walk. Else the baby get so annoying and I can't stand listening to the Lion King more than 2 times a day.
My BF took a summer class so he still only does homework and studying which doesn't evolve much of my interaction... It's hard as well but at least I have him there.
I don't know what's going on with Danny, if you want to talk about it you can write me a novel in a PM if it does you good you know! But what I know is that a good talk might me needed between the 2 of you. He really needs to get what you're going through.
...stupid cars! like I said your package can wait until you have enough money to send... I'm in the same situation anyway, and HG will understand too.
Take some time for yourself tonight and postpone that giveaway if it stress you more than doing good.
You ARE a strong lady! this is just a hard time to pass through!
... I'm gonna make myself some infusion and sending you good vibes :D
Oh how I know how you feel! I've been without my hubby for the last 3 weeks while he is away at school and it is driving me mad! I don't have kiddos to worry about so I'm guessing the added stress is not so good! I'll say a special blessing for you tonight! Keep your head up and remember there are people out there that care!
I'm so sorry to hear that life has you a bit down right now. :(
But I would like to thank you for displaying the 'Meet me at the water' button. It's greatly appreciated and I'm so glad we got to meet at the water...
Bridgett
Co-author, Divining Women
Oh, damn, I can so feel you on this one! I went through something very similar after we moved from TX to NJ when my kids were very small. My hubs was working every hour he could get and I was not-so-slowly loosing my mind.
I ended up on antidepressants and in therapy for a year (yeah, on the extreme side, lol), but we did work it through and now, 10 years later, are better than ever before. It was work on both our sides, but so worth it.
The best 2 pieces of advice I got from my therapist: Talk about what you are feeling to your husband when you are calm - don't hold it in and don't wait until you are about to explode to do it.
Every day -every single day- find a way to get 15 minutes to yourself, somehow. Even if it's just 15 minutes locked in the bathroom with your headphones on. Explain to your dh that this is what you are doing now, and after he gets home and has a few minutes to settle, take your 15 minutes. He has to wrangle kids. If you know he won't be home during kid hours, wake up a bit earlier and take it then. Meditate, take time to enjoy your tea, sit and enjoy the silence - but make sure you get it.
Blah, I could write for hours on this. The years when the kids are small and couple time is scarce can be so hard on a marriage sometimes - and your sanity!
((hugs))
Being now a single mom I can relae about how hard things can get sometimes... I see you already have the best pieces of advice from awesome ladies, so I second, third, fourth them all, and want to send my support for you. If there's one life life has taught me is that everything that is wron - no matter how wrong it is - finds a way in the end to be okay again. Trust yourself, breath in and out.
Kisses and love from Nydia.
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