Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Dark Days
What can I say? Lately, my depression and anxiety have been kicking my ass. Its a horrible feeling to not want to get out of bed, to have no passion for the things that I love and enjoy, the restlessness, the lethargy, the sense of impending doom. Why can't I be one of those happy people with an eternally sunny outlook? I feel so utterly alone out here.
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I often find myself wanting to kick those bright sunny people in the shin, since I've fought with depression my whole life. Lately I've found meditation, sunlight and lots of sleep to be helpful with getting through it. And sometimes really loud music... my neighbors must hate Gogol Bordello by now...
*hug*
Depression and insomnia were a big part of my childhood. I actually made my mother pay for a shrink when I was 16 because I was pissed of sleeping only a couple hours a day. She told me (the shrink) I didn't "learned" to sleep when I was 3 (when my father left for good) so now I'm slowly learning it! I've made some progress in 4 years..thanks to pregnancy and motherhood making me want to sleep all the time now >_<.
Depression is something you CAN heal.
And I've just added another item to our 76534+ points swap! hehe
I am so sorry to hear that you are suffering. I have fought depression my whole life too, off and on. Having a plan seems to me the key for me. Something to keep me from getting lost in the day-to-day-always-fighting-fires-and-never-having-fun times. Make or buy a planner and schedule some "me time" that you keep as if it were a doctor appt. or something. Even 15 minutes can make a HUGE difference. ~Lynn in IN (remember me?)
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