ARGH! FRUSTATION!

I've been trying to get in shape since I had Adeline. I've started watching what I eat and I'm trying to make better food choices. I'm also working out. We have a treadmill and I hop on that baby a handful of times a week. In the beginning I was all "Hell Yea! Fuck Yea! This is awesome!" Now, not so much. There seems to be so many things that I need to do before hopping on the treadmill.. >_> <_< Coincidence? I think not. So, in order to spice up my workout routine I tried adding work out videos. The first one was a dance video. That was a joke. lol It was an epic FAIL. I have no rhythm. Then I tried a baby and me yoga/pilates video. HOLY SHIT, I am out of shape :( The next few days my back was hurting soooooo badly. Ok, so it seems work out videos aren't meant for "Plus sized" post postpartum moms. What to do? I know! How about swimming?! I LOVE swimming. I mean, besides having to wear a skin tight swimsuit which will show off every little defect in glaring clarity, it's a great idea. I used to be on a swim team and I seriously love swimming. The cool water, the feel of weightlessness, no sweat. I order a swimsuit, goggles, and a cap. Great! Woo hoo! Feeling super hyped. I call to check the times for the local indoor pool. HaHaha! The voice on the other end of the phone says "What indoor pool? We don't have one." Apparently, I was mistaken. They only pool within a half hour drive is an outdoor pool that isn't open until the summer months. Well, FUCK! Back to square one.